Simple to some- everything to me... Journaling about Logan...

Every night after Logan is tucked into bed I sit and think how incredibly lucky I am to have such a wonderful & sweet little son. Doesn't every Mother do this? The daily things get in the way sometimes throughout the day...nerves get pushed, discipline takes place when the kids do naughty things...but at the end of the day it all comes into perspective...at least for me. Sometimes I feel guilty (lost my patience, or didn't get down and play hard enough with the little guy) but usually I just smile with pure contentment and love for him & appreciate the time we were able to be together and the memories that were made...even though he probably won't remember most when he is older!...that's why I write it down right?...truthfully its more for me I think!
Don't get me wrong...I am incredibly grateful for our sweet little Boston as well...and she is so precious to us...but tonight Logan is tap dancing on my heart and here's why...
Every night before he goes to bed he has to watch a movie...or part of a movie, depending on how tired he is. He used to have a 8:30 bedtime, but with the time change it's just too hard to wind down in time. So around 9 he gets his milk, teddy, and picks a movie (tonight it was Spirit) and sits on his little couch to watch it. He's so good at just sitting there...possible the only time in the day that he isn't a ball of energy! Tonight he wanted me to lay on the floor with him...so random...but sweet! I laid down on my side and he arranged himself just as he wanted...nestled in front of me in my arms laying on his side. We laid there until my arm was asleep! Logan looked at me and rubbed his eyes and said, "Mommy Ni-NITE". He's been doing this now for the past 2 weeks...he tells me when he is ready to go to bed...no fuss at all. He grabs onto Teddy, runs down the hall to his bedroom, drops Teddy right as he gets into his room (every night without fail! and always saying UH OH!) Then climbs into his bed...folds his arms....start rambling while I say his prayer and he copies what I am saying and then he says, "A!" (for Amen) Next I tuck him in- the layers go...Teddy snuggled tightly to him, "Puppy" on the left side of his pillow so that his head rests on the pillow (Logan's request), his green blanket that my friend (Natalie) made for him when he was a baby, sheet, and comforter. For some reason I have developed the habit to say "here's teddy, puppy goes here, blanket, sheet, and comforter!"...and now Logan says it along with me! He's so funny! Then he puckers up to give me a big kiss and pretty much yells "NI NIGHT, BYE!"

I just love him so much and appreciate what a good boy he is. He makes bedtime such a peaceful and spiritual time. Not once do I walk out o(f his bedroom after putting him to bed without thinking....how incredibly lucky I am to have such a wonderful & sweet little son.

*I love you more than words can say, Logan. love, Mom